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The Gift

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A few weeks ago I attended an anniversary service for a local spiritual community. During the celebration, while sitting in the meditative state, I turned my thoughts to contemplating all as One Spirit manifest.

Moving deeper into the meditative state, I was consciously aware of being part of the community of individuals at the spiritual level. We were observing our physical selves, yet simultaneously existing as both the observer and physical persons being observed. We experienced all present as Spirit’s energy living in matter. I was part of each individual present, all of us, each connected with each other were part of the Whole, and as we observed a great Love settled over the gathering, connected and interwoven we existed as One.

As we neared the end of meditation and the reflection song, “In the Name of Love” by Jennifer Corlett was sung, the words “Do you remember the call: Sung in the silent depths of you? Know that its power is deep in your heart, as a fire, a song, a dream,” stirred this great loving Presence, spiritual and physical merged, embraced.

Later, describing the event to a friend I told her, “I’m as excited as a child at Christmas.” Typically, this type of event only occurs while in deep meditation at home alone. As I become more adept at living prayer and meditation consistently through daily routine, I am experiencing conscious connection more readily. What a fantastic, awe-inspiring gift. The gift of conscious awareness and oneness. You dear reader carry this very same gift, all you need to do is sit quietly and connect. Practice prayer-filled, mindful living each day, each moment. We are more than this…

“O, that I might inhabit such a world, so peopled and so pressed at the borders with such fools as lovers are, those who know love’s deep contentment, who are awakened morning by endless morning to love’s timeless suns, those with eternity fixed in the registers of their blood, whose hearts are heavy with kindness, with the lives and well-being of others. O, for a world of such lovely fools, for a world of brave innocents, the beautiful and the betrothed, the healers and menders, who, impatient for heaven, summon the hereafter here and now and make a heaven of their earth…May you trust in the divinity and the inevitability of love.” ~ David Teems

The Right Time

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Living in Grace means allowing life to unfold, while still moving forward in creating the life you desire. What does that mean? Seems like an oxymoron doesn’t it? Letting things happen, but still taking steps to create?

According to my own dreams and intuition, along with observations of the general direction of the life path, it’s clear to me that I am right where I should be. I’m in a job surrounded by like-minded colleagues, socializing with supportive friends, watching adult children move up and out of the house so that I have the time and energy to write not only this blog, but to reflect and write pages of material. I have opportunity to meditate more frequently and to begin pulling together the stories of experiences that have been collected over many years for a book. All experience has led to this.

The education and maturity to write couldn’t just materialize. It was necessary to move through a variety of experiences and develop the skills required to write the book. Today while walking the woods at lunch, I realized that all pieces are in place. I have every single tool necessary, the environment, the education as well as the encouragement. It surrounds me. Now back to my first statement. “Living in Grace means allowing life to unfold, while still moving forward in creating the life you desire.” I could change the end of the statement to “forward in taking steps toward life purpose.” Of course that insinuates that you actually know what your life purpose is.

In 1999, while working on my Bachelor’s I took a creative arts course that required us to create a simple drawing or painting that illustrated what we thought our life purpose was. I painted a simple hillside with a woman sitting under a tree writing a book in the sunshine. The book’s title, “More Than This” and painted across the skies “Life’s Journey is a Workshop for the Spirit.” How serendipitous. This blog carries those exact words throughout the pages, thirteen years later. I knew then I would write a book. I also knew it would be some time before I’d be ready. It was necessary to trust in the mechanics of Grace. A single mother with four children at home, ages 4 through 17, working a part-time, my plate was full and running over. I knew there would be a time, but not then, not yet.

Now the baby is 17, a senior in high school. I’ve acquired a Bachelor’s, Master’s and post-graduate work in writing and I’m in a position to pull all the pieces together. What does it take now to move things along? Commitment and desire on my part. Grace provided everything I need, now it’s my turn to act.

What has Grace provided for you? Looking over the timeline of your life days, what do you see it leading to? Is there something you are meant to act on? Are you ready? Do you have the desire and ability to commit time and effort? We are more than this…

“May some good thing, some outrageous and unexpected advantage, some liberal and immeasurable portion of good come to you. May it have the odd stamp of inevitability sealed within it. May it come labeled and with your name on it, impatient for you, by some express delivery, unstoppable in transit, blessedness within all of your specifications, all the peculiar measures of you, that rescripts all your doubts and misbeliefs, and topples your little inner kingdom where dreams and longing have slept too deep and too long and thought things impossible.” ~ David Teems 2004

Today’s Moments

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I was reading an article this morning about how emotional reactions to past experience are carried in memory. These memories are what can stand in the way of personal progress, happiness and life success. When we come up against challenges, the remembered emotions rise up in waves pushing us back, holding us in place, standing still instead of moving forward.

The author writes,

“However, yesterday can have no reality other than our reactions to it. It can have no real existence of its own in today other than the lengthened shadows of yesterday. And so it is that as the impulsions of yesterday are carried over into today, making today happy or disconsolate, so the reactions of today are prophetic of what we shall experience tomorrow.”

What does this mean for you and me? It’s an old cliché, the past is gone, tomorrow is not yet arrived, we have only right now, this very moment. Observe the moment, be mindful of your surroundings and what fills your life right now, right where you exist on the life path. Personally I am grateful for the good place my family is in, for the friends that walk this life with me, for the people I work with who support and appreciate me, and all is well. The memory I have this moment, the memory I’m creating is that of gratitude, this is my reaction in the moment. Being mindful of our reactions and emotions will help in creating positive memories, changing mindset and making our paths of tomorrow happier. We have the ability to perceive things differently in order to change remembered emotions for our tomorrows. Do it! We are more than this…

Beyond Perfectionism

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Lately writing has been challenging. I have half a dozen entries started and unfinished all at the same time. There are so many things going on. What to blog, what to share, what do readers want to know? So I stalled out. My motor stopped. Growing up we had an old speedboat my father had restored with loving care. He sanded the wood over and over until smooth, fixed the nicks and scratches, stained it and varnished it, buffing until shiny bright, a rebuilt motor that had seen better days was perched on the back. Sometimes while out on the lake it would stall out. Just stop, like me. I’m stalled.

My words are around, I roll them out and then go over and over them, fixing up the nicks and scratches, adding some color here and there, polishing the writing, just like dad polished the boat. Only where dad would step back and say ok enough, it’s ready let’s get her in the water, I’m still choosing colors, smoothing, polishing and buffing and polishing some more. I’m a perfectionist. I don’t step back and say ok, it’s ready to go, I’m still picking at the work.

I’ve decided I need to change the blog posts up a bit. You’ll start to see some light thoughts, humor, – writing, short stories, dreams, favorite poems, favorite motivational posters I or others have created and more. So stay with me dear readers. There are lot’s of adventure filled pages coming. We are more than this…

Living Beyond Fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous. Actually who am I not to be?

You are a child of God. If you are playing small, that doesn’t serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are born to manifest the glory of God within us.

It is in everyone. And as we let our lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others. ~ Marianne Williamson

Life Lessons

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This week I put the brakes on a repeating life experience and stepped onto a new life path. I left the comfort of familiar emotions carried into adulthood and the insidious desire to recreate tragic childhood feelings. There was so much drama, anxiety and sadness back then. Giving myself some credit, I admit each time I have repeated the type of relationship choice that creates this environment, it’s at a lessor scale. This week there was a breakthrough. I consciously recognized what was going on and how important it was to make a change. I knew it was time to honor what I felt, embrace the feelings and walk toward healthier life path choices.

Knowing we are each part of the Whole, of Spirit, of God, it becomes difficult to see anyone as “wrong.” Instead, I see what lies beneath each person, I know he is my brother or she, my sister in Spirit. How then can I judge? I accept wholeheartedly without resistance, surrender, allowing events to unfold as they may. What made this most recent event unusual is that although I recognized divinity in the person, I knew it wasn’t necessary to have this individual in my life or the repeated life experience. I can still accept him as Spirit, allow him to live as he so chooses and walk away loving him.

It sounds simple enough doesn’t it? Just to walk away from those who seem to impact us? However when you love from Source, when you know these individuals are part of you, only compassion remains and the desire to help. Many times I want to reach out, pull the individual into a gentle embrace all the time inwardly speaking with their Wisdom self, coaxing knowledge to their consciousness, hoping they will get it, that they will create positive life experiences through their choices. Does it work? Sometimes yes, sometimes no. I have been known to stay and stay and stay. Rather than becoming preachy, I choose to teach through example, illustrating that my own choices create the life I wish to experience. My hope has been that they would learn and we would continue to walk together. The heightened awareness experienced this week broke the patterning. With full clarity I knew I could, with a loving heart, choose differently. I have learned the lesson to accept, love and hold each person in compassion but to choose again, a new way.

Today and every day, see all with eyes of compassion. Embrace with love and walk away if necessary knowing all the time that we are connected with the Divine, each a unique expression of the Spirit Collective. Trust that you are right where you should be in your choices, they are our life lessons. We are more than this…

“What if your vision of life was suddenly altered or supplanted somehow for a strange new one? And order as you know it was suddenly reordered, your rule of life given over for something better, higher, something you could not have expected or imagined? Warning: Love will confer upon you a new rule, and with it, a new set of scales. You will see and consider new things. You will hear what you could not hear before. Your priorities, your politics, your responses to life, how you invest your soul, your words, your actions — it all changes. Love transforms all your receptors and rewrites all contracts with the earth you inhabit. And again be warned: It doesn’t come without a price. Love asks nothing but everything. Like heaven itself, love is but a death away, one authentic surrender…” ~ David Teems

Making Choices

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by Salvador Dali

 

While preparing for meditation this morning I came across this lovely contemplative writing that I share with you today. Be mindful dear reader.

“After a long, hard climb up the mountain, the spiritual seekers found themselves in front of the great teacher. Bowing, they asked the question that had been burning inside them for so long:

‘How do we become wise O Master?’

There was a long pause until the teacher emerged from his meditation. Finally, the reply came, ‘Good choices.’

‘But how do we learn to make good choices?’

“From experience,’ responded the wise teacher.

‘And how do we acquire such experience?’ They inquired.

‘Bad choices,’ smiled the teacher.

Watch your thoughts, they become your words. Watch your words they become actions. Watch your actions, they become habits. Watch your habits, they become character. Watch your character, it becomes your destiny.

Be mindful of what you think, how you speak, and what you do.”

We are more than this…

Circle of One

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I had an amazing experience yesterday during meditation. An event felt with such clarity I share it in the hope that you also will take time to sit quietly in order to discover more about yourself, connection with Spirit and about living.

After imaging through a series of colors I had reached a state of quiet calm.  There I saw a circle of individuals around me…one of the individuals was in fact me. “I” was observing my physical self yet simultaneously existing as both the observer and the person being observed. I, as physical self, felt a wave of compassion as the circle observed my life experiences and saw the child behind the woman who had been raised in a home with an alcoholic parent. Both the child and woman carried wounds in the form of fragility and sadness.

What triggered this experience while in meditation was the country song “Blown Away,” done by Carrie Underwood. I’ve been hearing this frequently on the radio. It’s the story of a young girl growing up with an alcoholic father. The video for the song shows a storm approaching with tornado sirens blaring. After watching the music video I found there was a resurfacing of the memories and emotional wounds carried as a child. It is not that I have buried the experiences, they rise and fall as they will, I accept, observe and then let them go. Watch the video for yourself, it’s quite powerful (use the back button to return to this Blog):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pJgoHgpsb9I

As the meditation continued to unfold with my existing in duality, the Circle of One spoke in a union of voices, “Be compassionate toward your self. Give your self comfort. Respect and love the child who experienced what are now memories carried as an adult woman.” They reached out in waves of compassion, holding me close, all the while illustrating how here in the physical I must also consciously embrace the child and now woman in loving care rather than just putting the surfaced memories aside. What a profound experience.

At the same time there were images and words requesting I share this with you dear readers, that I encourage you to find the time to sit quietly and connect with the Spirit Collective, with the Circle of One. Hold yourself and the memories that rise to the surface in loving care and compassion. The entire experience spoke to how we are hard on ourselves, driven to let the past go in order to move forward. Embrace your memories and your self with compassion and love, we are very obviously not alone in this endeavor. We are more than this…

“Let your mind start a journey thru a strange new world. Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before. Let your soul take you where you long to be…Close your eyes let your spirit start to soar, and you’ll live as you’ve never lived before.” ~ Erich Fromm