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Spirit, Living as Individualized Expression in the Physical or, We are more than this…


In February of 2012, during a meditation session, I found myself in an in-between place, no longer in meditation, yet not present in my physical body.  I was in the company of spiritual colleagues.  We were very excited to be collaborating with each other on the creation of the new life experiences that were yet to unfold in the physical reality.  During the time there, I understood and knew nothing other than what we were doing.  In simpler words, I existed solely as an energy being.  I was no longer physical and existed only as part of the Spirit Collective.  However, I did return to the physical body to share this powerful experience with you:

February 24 2012 – 5 a.m.

I am one of many, yet we are as one, connected and intertwined with no means, method, or desire to be separate.  Collectively in what can only be called great love, the most encompassing love, which is our natural state of being, we are creators. I exist as my creator, or rather I am the creator of my body manifested on Earth.  Who we are here, is how we exist physically on Earth, however here we are pure flowing energy in this place, and on Earth we have physical bodies.  There is nothing but love here in this place of oneness, no strife, no pain, no opposites.

The colors are many, vivid, alive, moving and flowing.  All character is clothed in fluid, colored hues.  The air is alive with excited conversation, thought-speak that vibrates like musical tones.  We are planning a path of events.  There is a joyful sense of knowing in the midst of this natural beauty and being.  Even the aspects of nature exist, but as an aware nature, as part of the Spirit Collective.

During this time, I am comfortably aware that earthly reality provides the opportunity for individualization, individual creativity, and autonomy, something we cannot experience as part of the Collective Spirit.  Yet even at the core of the individualization experienced in the physical world, there is an underlying story and interweaving of all personalities that we have agreed upon in the purest form. During the experience, we finished our creative planning, and agreed it was time for me to return.

My self, as an energy being and conscious representation of the Whole, began to return to this physical plane. I felt an acceleration as I traveled along a thread of energy. I was completely aware that I was returning to the physical state and knew with certainty that I would remain always connected to the Spirit, to God, to All That Is.

Now, back in the physical, I opened my eyes. I am returned.  I feel a great sadness and yearning, because with this new conscious knowledge and awareness, I feel a homesickness I did not realize prior to this experience. However, the experience and the  connection to the Spirit Collective also created a heightened sense of life purpose.  I am meant to share the knowing and continuing journey with you dear reader.

Since this profound experience in 2012, my physical world life experiences became more challenging and absorbing.  My focus turned toward getting children through high school and college, promotions in the workplace, and unexpected health challenges.  Still, I have felt the presence and connection to Spirit.

Now, moving into a new chapter of life, I know it’s the right time to share more of my story and more of the ongoing connection and interconnection experiences.  We are so much more than these physical bodies.  We are so much more than the autopilot lives we lead, the things we work for, what we’ve been taught to value and believe. We are more than this…

Have you had a life-altering experience that brought you closer to truths? Did you share your experience with others?  Or have you kept it to yourself out of fear of being considered too out there?  The more I share my story, the more I find that others have had experiences that have brought them closer to their true form, visible Spirit living in the world of matter.

Tell me about your experience.  Keep the conversation going!

“Putting on Immortality from the Infinite Way by Joel Goldsmith ~ 

‘In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God, and the Word was God… And the Word was made flesh.’

‘The Word was made flesh’ – but it still is the Word.  By being flesh it does not change its nature, character, or substance.  Cause becomes visible as effect, but the essence or substance is still the Word, Spirit or Consciousness. 

In this wise, we do understand that there is not a spiritual universe and a material world, but rather that what appears as our world is the Word made flesh, Spirit made visible, or Consciousness expressed as idea.” (p.21)


Conscious Decision Making


Life By Design nl


In February 2013, I had a lucid dream experience where I was consciously creating in the fabric of space and time. I was present before the canvas of matter creating images with thoughts and gestures. Since 2013, there have been many mornings when I’ve actually awakened with my arms and hands up in the air gesturing as if I am still creating from the “other” side of the fabric, spirit body on that side, physical body on this side. I know that with regular practice through meditation, lucid dreaming and conscious awareness, I can change day-to-day physical reality creating a more desirable, joy-filled life-path. As a mystic, I know that we are, we live, simultaneously as both source-self (spiritual being) and the physical manifested self, experiencing life. One might look at the physical self as an avatar of sorts, a vehicle that allows us to experience living out all sorts of adventures through a physical body! In short, we live between two worlds.

Naturally and unconsciously through choice, we have created daily experiences using thought and action. However, many of us are thinking, acting, and creating experiences running on “autopilot,” allowing life to occur, to just happen… and as a result, often left wondering why things aren’t quite the way we’d prefer. How do we create change?

The simple answer is to turn off the autopilot. To be mindful of thoughts and consequent actions. To take responsibility for, and examine the choices made… and then choose differently where possible. We can create a new reality, with conscious mindful thought, conscious mindful decisions, conscious mindful planning, and conscious mindful action.

Will daily life then be picture perfect? I can say from experience that it will not because some of the choices made up until now have resulted in the experiences each of us are currently living through. However, I can say it will be better and that circumstances can be changed. Life is better because you will have become fully engaged. Daily life events are no longer just happening to you because you will have become a conscious, mindful, active, participant in its creation.

How to start? Over the next couple of months, each week I will introduce a set of self-exploration exercises to assist in becoming mindful of current life situations, where your focus has been, where it’s at today, how to make time for self-nurturing, and how to manage time and plan mindfully. These simple no-nonsense self-discovery activities are meant to be used over and over as you cycle through decisions, discover new facets of self, choose goals and take steps toward change. These activities have been used in workshops for over twenty years, basic, tried and true.  They are focused, personal, and will nudge you toward self-nurturing, as well as personal and spiritual growth. Next week: Module One – “Primary Caretakers.”