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I love this Anais Nin quote. It holds a message for us all, to move away from “shallow living” into meaningful moments, minutes, hours, days, years…to move into more meaningful lives.

Reach out for your sons and daughters. Hug them, tell a lame joke, walk with them, enjoy their stories and laughter, watch a favorite cartoon, let them share the video games you don’t understand but they’re expert at, go to a sporting event, play mini golf, go bowling…share your time deeply.

Look into the eyes of your significant other when they’re talking, listen to the words they’re speaking, touch, fingers to fingers, remember what brought you to be sitting there in the first place, share the story again and how it felt, reminisce…connect deeply.

Show interest, become involved in hearing your friends and colleagues, spend time in dialogue, discussing, debating, laughing, loving, dance with them, sit for tea or coffee, have a beer, take a walk, be there now…hear deeply.

Walk prairie trails, run fingers across tall grasses, reach out for the Black-Eyed Susans and Queen Anne’s lace, hug a tree face to bark, sit on a bench with toes digging into blades of grass or by the creek, dip your feet…feel deeply.

Observe the cities, people walking and chatting, tall buildings, taxis, buses, hustle bustle, whistles, couriers, trains and planes, lakeside runners, sailboats and ferris wheels…see deeply.

Become a mermaid. We are more than this…

“You must live in the present, launch yourself on every wave, find your eternity in each moment. Fools stand on their island opportunities and look toward another land. There is no other land, there is no other life but this.” ~ Henry David Thoreau

Leave the Shallows

Living Grace


Angel of Grace & Beauty by Mairin Gilmartin

We’re in the midst of it all, the middle of life, people orbiting around, some of whom may be having a tough day and so snap at you when you’ve asked a question, or someone who’s unhappy because things didn’t go the way they had planned and you’re taking the brunt of it, or a child who’s loaded with homework and is grumpy, or a partner or spouse who lost out on an opportunity. Yup, right smack in the middle of it.

Ah, but you dear reader are Grace manifested, so you know to stay in the peace, the calm, to stay in your own moment allowing others to be responsible for their anxiety, anger, sadness or frustration. Yes, they own their experiences, they do not belong to you. Living as part of the Spirit Collective you will of course provide that listening ear, supportive shoulder, and comforting presence, you’ll be there offering Grace, it’s part of your life purpose. We are more than this…

“And now in all your doings be you blessed. God turns to you for help to save the wold. Teacher of God, His thanks He offers you, and all the world stands silent in the Grace you bring from Him. You are the Son He loves, and it is given you to be the means through which His Voice is heard around the world, to close all things of time; to end the sight of all things visible; and to undo all things that change. Through you is ushered in a world unseen, unheard, yet truly there. Holy are you, and in your light the world reflects your holiness, for you are not alone and friendless. I give thanks for you, and join your efforts on behalf of God, knowing they are on my behalf as well, and for all those who walk to God with me.” ~ Helen Schucman and Willam Thetford, A Course in Miracles

Independent Solitude


I sometimes get buried in daily life, forgetting what it means to practice self-care. This last weekend there was so much going on with children and friends I totally forgot to take care of me. I just couldn’t say no, especially to my kids.

Every time I overdo I wonder how I landed in this place again. I’m an aware individual, an intuitive, I know better right? Ha! Thing is I’m also human. The autopilot switch goes on and wham I get lost in the needs of others.

“It is easy in the world to live after the world’s opinion, it is easy in solitude to live after your own; but the great man is he who, in the midst of the world, keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude.”         ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

Now back into the work week, it’s necessary to seek out pockets of time for quick snoozes and centering meditations. Sitting on a park bench by the prairie for five or ten minutes before work, catching a catnap at lunch, there are ways to bring myself back to a wonderfully centered calm. In a few days, I’ll be good as new. Still, it might be a good idea to catch myself before I’m standing with too much going on no time for me and now I’m exhausted place.

How can I do that? I’ll mix five-minute meditations into the day, do some mindful walking at lunchtime, use breaks to reflect on how I allowed myself to run on auto and get to sleep an hour earlier each evening. When the weekend comes around again, I’ll keep an afternoon of rest in the schedule. The key is to keep practicing, to say no sometimes to others and say yes more often to self.  What can you do to recover from those run on days that leave you limping? What can you do to stay on track?

“There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all of time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and be lost.” ~ Martha Graham


by Christopher Vacher


Honor the joy surrounding you. This week I’ve talked about mindfulness and recognizing the sacred moments, taking time to sit quietly, to recognize the divine in those around you. Today let’s remember to in-joy! To bring the happiness that surrounds you, those joy-filled experiences with your spouse or partner, family member or friend, work colleagues, even pets, bring that love and laughter to the inner self. 

“I sing for joy in the shadow of your wings, my soul clings close to you…” Psalm 63:7-8 

Reflect on the week. Were there any experiences in particular that stand out as being joy-filled? Who was it with? What were you doing that brought happiness and reduced stress? How can you bring more of these experiences into your personal life? Work environment? Fall in love with life and living by bringing all of the Spirit gifted moments and those earth angels to the forefront, letting the undesirable fall away. We are more than this…

 Finding God in Everyday Moments

“Nothing is more practical than finding God, that is, than falling in love in a quite absolute, final way. What you are in love with, what seizes your imagination, will affect everything. It will decide what will get you out of bed in the morning, what you do with your evenings, how you spend your weekends, what you read, who you know, what breaks your heart, and what amazes you with joy and gratitude. Fall in love, stay in love, and it will decide everything.” ~ Pedro Arrupe, SJ”

Honor the Joy

Sitting in the Midst of Movement


Over the last year I’ve had several dreams about events that will occur, some of them already have. They were presented in a linear fashion, picture after picture almost like individual diorama’s. Do you remember doing those in grade school with shoe boxes and construction paper?  They had depth and a sort of reality to them. Several of the images I was shown were of earthquakes, tsunamis, floods, fires, and more, all illustrations of the Earth and humanity in the midst of major change.

In my dreams I am always with the elders, they are my instructors. In one particular dream, after observing the depth of each event, I turned to the elders pointing back to the past and asked, “Can I go back that way? I don’t much like what’s coming.” The elders told me to look back again. I turned just in time to see the past slip away, break apart and dissolve into nothing. The past was gone. Now the only choice was to move into the future, into the world of change, there was no back to go back to. The morning after this particular dream occurred I woke to the news that Japan had experienced an 8.9 earthquake and a devastating tsunami.

You would think being shown and knowing events that will unfold, then having them actually happen would make a person confident in their skills and abilities. Wouldn’t you? Yet time after time I am amazed and surprised. When the readings I do for people are right on, when a meditation I do for someone who needs information is exactly what they needed, when I dream diorama-like events that unfold before my eyes and they occur, I still doubt. I believe it’s because I am still a work in progress living both spiritual and human experience. My goal is to bring integration of both the Wisdom self and human self together in order to have a better understanding of how to use these intuitive skills.

Reaching this goal requires staying consciously present, paying attention to each person, experience and lesson placed on the life journey path at any given moment while simultaneously paying attention to meditations, intuitions and dreams. In other words, integrating both human and spiritual experience.  Being a mom, I sometimes lose sight of the spiritual, especially when one of the children is in crisis. I remind myself that they too are on the journey and sometimes I have to step back occasionally and let them deal with the life lesson. This is definitely fodder for another post.

It all leads back to mindfulness. Being mindful and aware of each moment, contact with each person, intuitive thoughts you’re supposed to hear as well as those serendipitous moments. Paying attention and contemplative, a tough call sometimes when we’re operating in fast paced environments. I have several techniques I use at home and at the office. One is to stop whatever I may be doing (completely) to turn my attention to the person who is talking to me. That means I stop doing the dishes or turn away from the computer. Another technique is to have two to three-minute reality checks each hour. How am I doing? Feeling? What’s going on I haven’t paid attention to?

“In the midst of movement and chaos, keep stillness inside of you.” ~ Deepak Chopra

We are more than this…Bringing that “more” into awareness requires listening, using the gift of sense and stopping occasionally to sit and reflect. What are some of the techniques that work for you?

Eternal Present


Today it was hard for me to be still. Mind was flying here and there, flitting from one thought to another, resting a moment and then off again. First I thought it might be because it’s Monday. I had a list of things I wanted to accomplish before the end of the day and really didn’t want to deal with this, whatever it was. After a couple of hours I put my work aside to sit quietly and center.

Staring out the office window toward the trees, I settled on one activity, being still. Stopping for a moment to sit with mind quietly, breathing in, exhale, relax, repeat. Washing out the flitting thoughts one after the other, each fell away until quiet remained and a lone image, it was an image of me. Me, excitedly anticipating life events while I carry out typical, predictable day-to-day duties. Like a little kid waiting for Christmas presents I couldn’t be still.

In that moment of observation, I recognized these were flitting images of things to come, events that will unfold. Rather than scolding mind for skipping about, I clapped hands right along with it in joy, all is well, life is good. Create! Go ahead. Throughout the remainder of the day, my hope was to capture a few of the images to identify people and places. Although they escaped recognition, the excited anticipation remained. In the end, I decided to enjoy. Bringing these awesome feelings to the tasks at hand, I went back to work finishing nearly everything on my list before the end of the day. Recognize the sacred in your day. Those fleeting and flitting moments. We are more than this…

“Because love has the stuff of forever in it, we may enjoy eternity in the present. And though love renders time mute, it makes the moments we have, even the most insignificant of them sacred, for we are answerable to the divinity within those moments. Each brings with it its own opportunity for love. Like a good angel ascending and descending the ladder between heaven and earth, divinity and humanity, between time and timelessness, love has charge in both domains, and makes the two one, allowing you and I to partake of heaven on the dullest of days, in the most unsuspecting time.”    ~David Teems

Let Go and Live!


Many years ago I dreamt I was walking with an “elder.” I asked her, “Will I ever be happy?” Her response, “Well, you won’t be unhappy.” I pushed her to tell me more. “How long will I live?”

“You may live to here,” pointing to a large tree, the spot indicated 85 years. “But it’s possible you may live to here,” moving her hand up the tree to another location indicating 95 years. “It all depends on your attitude. You’ve pushed aside many of the options offered to you,” the elder continued.

I remembered this dream just last week when presented with a clairaudient nudge to call someone who was no more than an acquaintance. Over and over again I heard, “Open up, look larger, let go!” I resisted with the set of experiences and baggage I carry around. I resisted and as I did, I remembered the dream and the “It depends on your attitude” statement. I decided to go for it, to let go of what I feel are my controls and make the call. My thoughts, “I have nothing to lose. This person might become a friend rather than just someone I see a few times a year. Let go, let go, let go. Something good may come of this. Just listen and let go.”

It was necessary for me to imagine several times a day that I was falling into the safety of a caring Spirit, my Wisdom Self who can see the larger picture. Over and over again since that day, I have pictured laying back into wisdom trusting that all will unfold as it should. And guess what’s happened? Stuff. Stuff happened. Events unfolded I could not have imagined. They’ve led me into a new friendship I had not previously considered and probably wouldn’t have generated on my own.

And. Every day I see the barriers, the control panel, the desire to say, “No really, this isn’t for me. I’m not doing this.” When I do, when I think this way, there is the inner voice again, “Stay open, fall into these experiences, let go and live! Live!” It’s been much easier to stay in tune with the Wisdom Self when I look back and affirm that when I listened, things happened. Remember, stay mindful, listen, let go and live! An adventure is waiting! We are more than this…

“As a being of power, intelligence, and love, and the lord of your own thoughts, you hold the key to every situation…by which you may make yourself what you will.” ~ James Allen

Perfect Sense


Sculpture by David Kracov

Yesterday I felt a subject at the tip of my brain, then it was gone…then some thoughts playing, dancing through me, teasing, then gone again. I’m often inspired through the course of a day by a song I’ve heard in the car on the way to work, a random thought that occurs just in talking with someone or an article I’ve read that pushes at the inner door. Ready to head home, with a frustrated sigh I decided I wouldn’t write at all when I got home since the topic seemed so evasive.

As I packed my things  I spotted a book on the window ledge I’d been meaning to drop in the mailroom for anyone to grab and read. Picking it up, I glanced at the inside cover wondering if I should put my name in it so it might be returned. There in front of me on the cover page, two words were scrawled, “Perfect Sense.” I’d written them on the page over a month ago while sitting in the car at a stoplight. I had no paper so I grabbed the book out of my bag and hurriedly scribbled knowing I would need the words later.

Looking at the page, I read the words with entirely different meaning than when I’d written them. Instead of “perfect sense,” meaning good logic, I read “sense” as an actual sense like feel, taste, hear, see — only it, the word was not in relation to any one individual of these senses, instead it was relative to my state of being alive as Spirit in this physical form using all and every sense. The words “Perfect Sense,” capitalized represented complete conscious awareness fully living, or the Perfect “Sense” for Spirit to manifest! Amazing, absolutely in your face amazing.

Don’t you just love being alive and more than this…

“Follow your bliss, and doors will open for you that you never knew existed. Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls.” – Joseph Campbell

Peace-Filled Moments


“Meditation is calling, have a peace-filled night,” I said ending a phone conversation with my friend.  His response? “I don’t know what peace is.” Instead of taking the bait I hung up knowing I’d talk with him the next day.

Intense living, worries about children, family, finances, health concerns, global warming, warring in different parts of the world, consuming responsibility is what captures the mind. One step in front of the other, moving forward through each event to the next, where is peace in the midst of it? It’s there. You’re just not making room for it.

Generally outside events control us with little time spent examining inner state of being or thought given to sitting quietly in peace. Go through your day start to finish. Alarm goes off, jump up, shower, dress, out the door to the workplace, or school, or wherever you spend your day. Talking, listening, talking some more, e-mail, cell phones, talking some more, work, lunch, work, talking some more, heading home, cook, eat, TV, computers, news, shows, prepare for tomorrow, sleep, repeat. Where did you fit time to sit quietly, even if just for a few moments?

In response to my friends statement, “I don’t know what peace is,” the next morning I reminded him of how he actually does have moments of  opportunity, many of them. In the course of a day, he spends a good part of it outdoors walking fields and forests, sometimes losing himself in careful footsteps through the woods, up a hill, through a creek. “Yes, you do know what peace is,” I said. “You experience it every time you walk in the woods and forget everything else exists.”

“Well said.” He replied. Well said. His work provided peace, he just needed to pay attention in order to recognize the opportunity. Change up your perspective. That cup of coffee or orange juice you drink over the newspaper or watching the news in the morning, take it outside to the patio and listen to the morning sounds, enjoy five minutes of peace-filled contemplation, observing only what’s in front of you, allowing thoughts of the day to wait…just five minutes. Focus on a tree, the leaves, the birdsong. Or how about in the car? Play favorite music, listen to each note, let the melody flow through you, even if just for five minutes. At the office, after lunch spend just five minutes staring out a window, or with your eyes closed on a park bench outside in quiet meditation.

Change up your routine, start with just five minutes. Before you know it your pace slows, and ah ha, you have found little pockets of peace-filled moments. Do it. Don’t wait. Do it now. Make a conscious choice, practice daily. It’s a beginning. Realize that you are more than this…

“Our true home is in the present moment, To live in the present moment is a miracle. The miracle is not to walk on water, the miracle is to walk on the green earth in the present moment, to appreciate the peace and beauty that are available now. Peace is all around us — in the world and nature — and within us — in our bodies and our spirits. Once we learn to touch this peace, we will be healed and transformed. It is not a matter of faith, it is a matter of practice.” ~ Thich Nhat Hanh

Intoxicating Possibility


In the early years of skill discovery it was difficult to focus on any one concept, I wanted to understand all of what I could do, to know how energy healing, aura reading, psychometric readings and precognative dreaming worked. I wanted something, anything that would compartmentalize and humanize spiritual activity. Forty years of searching has led me to understand that the spiritual root of self is central to living as human, it is our very core.

What I’ve learned is that we haven’t lost the core connection. It moves with us, acting like a thread or tether to the Whole never broken, ever-present, ever strong. Generally, we are offered the family’s belief system, cultural preferences, and life path options with nudges from parents or significant others holding us close. Not surprisingly, the actual rediscovery of core connection to the Whole is up to each of us individually. It is a self-discovery path we walk alone. Imagine how different living physically might have been if we had tapped into the Spirit Collective from an early age.

Over lunch this week with a like-minded colleague, I discussed my quest for understanding free will, the life path and Spirit collaboration. I also shared a number of dreams from my journal regarding life path choices. For example, some years after my mother returned to Spirit, I had a dream revealing several options she had to choose from while living on Earth. Each life path she might have lived was different from the other, however they all had a common thread, she lived with and died of lung disease. In another recent dream, where I again raised the question of free will before entering the dream state, I was shown a young woman who was painfully thin and didn’t like her body. She also had a number of choices for life paths, all included living as a thin woman. These examples follow my previous logic, that we are born into circumstances previously chosen in the Spirit Collective state, with the ability to choose from a variety of paths, creatively orchestrating daily events, ultimately creating who we are in the present moment.

After a lengthy conversation, my colleague and I found the discussion opened a Pandora’s box of questions. I share just a few of them here:

  • If we were more connected with Spirit Collective (or what I’ve come to call our Wisdom Self), would it be possible to collaborate consciously in order to create a rewarding life path and/or to assist in co-facilitating personal growth in others?
  • I have several friends living with dis-ease. Would it be possible to collaborate with Spirit consciously to determine best course of action here in the physical for assisting others on their life journeys as they continue in life or through the transition period back to Spirit?
  • How would life be different? Might we better understand the gifts we’re born with and choose occupations based on the gifts?
  • Would we work together in large groups to discern next steps for our culture, for our world?

And finally, would there be discussion and decisions at the Spirit Collective level that seep through the core threads tethering each of us to our Wisdom Self in order for us to consciously recognize and grow with constant, steady nurturing? What a wonderous reality this could be if we were consciously aware each moment of being more than this…

“If I were to wish for anything, I should not wish for wealth and power, but for the passionate sense of the potential, for the eye which, ever young and ardent, sees the possible. Pleasure disappoints, possibility never. And what wine is so foaming, what so fragrant, what so intoxicating, as possibility! ~~ Soren Kierkegaard