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Sitting in the Midst of Movement


Over the last year I’ve had several dreams about events that will occur, some of them already have. They were presented in a linear fashion, picture after picture almost like individual diorama’s. Do you remember doing those in grade school with shoe boxes and construction paper?  They had depth and a sort of reality to them. Several of the images I was shown were of earthquakes, tsunamis, floods, fires, and more, all illustrations of the Earth and humanity in the midst of major change.

In my dreams I am always with the elders, they are my instructors. In one particular dream, after observing the depth of each event, I turned to the elders pointing back to the past and asked, “Can I go back that way? I don’t much like what’s coming.” The elders told me to look back again. I turned just in time to see the past slip away, break apart and dissolve into nothing. The past was gone. Now the only choice was to move into the future, into the world of change, there was no back to go back to. The morning after this particular dream occurred I woke to the news that Japan had experienced an 8.9 earthquake and a devastating tsunami.

You would think being shown and knowing events that will unfold, then having them actually happen would make a person confident in their skills and abilities. Wouldn’t you? Yet time after time I am amazed and surprised. When the readings I do for people are right on, when a meditation I do for someone who needs information is exactly what they needed, when I dream diorama-like events that unfold before my eyes and they occur, I still doubt. I believe it’s because I am still a work in progress living both spiritual and human experience. My goal is to bring integration of both the Wisdom self and human self together in order to have a better understanding of how to use these intuitive skills.

Reaching this goal requires staying consciously present, paying attention to each person, experience and lesson placed on the life journey path at any given moment while simultaneously paying attention to meditations, intuitions and dreams. In other words, integrating both human and spiritual experience.  Being a mom, I sometimes lose sight of the spiritual, especially when one of the children is in crisis. I remind myself that they too are on the journey and sometimes I have to step back occasionally and let them deal with the life lesson. This is definitely fodder for another post.

It all leads back to mindfulness. Being mindful and aware of each moment, contact with each person, intuitive thoughts you’re supposed to hear as well as those serendipitous moments. Paying attention and contemplative, a tough call sometimes when we’re operating in fast paced environments. I have several techniques I use at home and at the office. One is to stop whatever I may be doing (completely) to turn my attention to the person who is talking to me. That means I stop doing the dishes or turn away from the computer. Another technique is to have two to three-minute reality checks each hour. How am I doing? Feeling? What’s going on I haven’t paid attention to?

“In the midst of movement and chaos, keep stillness inside of you.” ~ Deepak Chopra

We are more than this…Bringing that “more” into awareness requires listening, using the gift of sense and stopping occasionally to sit and reflect. What are some of the techniques that work for you?

Intoxicating Possibility


In the early years of skill discovery it was difficult to focus on any one concept, I wanted to understand all of what I could do, to know how energy healing, aura reading, psychometric readings and precognative dreaming worked. I wanted something, anything that would compartmentalize and humanize spiritual activity. Forty years of searching has led me to understand that the spiritual root of self is central to living as human, it is our very core.

What I’ve learned is that we haven’t lost the core connection. It moves with us, acting like a thread or tether to the Whole never broken, ever-present, ever strong. Generally, we are offered the family’s belief system, cultural preferences, and life path options with nudges from parents or significant others holding us close. Not surprisingly, the actual rediscovery of core connection to the Whole is up to each of us individually. It is a self-discovery path we walk alone. Imagine how different living physically might have been if we had tapped into the Spirit Collective from an early age.

Over lunch this week with a like-minded colleague, I discussed my quest for understanding free will, the life path and Spirit collaboration. I also shared a number of dreams from my journal regarding life path choices. For example, some years after my mother returned to Spirit, I had a dream revealing several options she had to choose from while living on Earth. Each life path she might have lived was different from the other, however they all had a common thread, she lived with and died of lung disease. In another recent dream, where I again raised the question of free will before entering the dream state, I was shown a young woman who was painfully thin and didn’t like her body. She also had a number of choices for life paths, all included living as a thin woman. These examples follow my previous logic, that we are born into circumstances previously chosen in the Spirit Collective state, with the ability to choose from a variety of paths, creatively orchestrating daily events, ultimately creating who we are in the present moment.

After a lengthy conversation, my colleague and I found the discussion opened a Pandora’s box of questions. I share just a few of them here:

  • If we were more connected with Spirit Collective (or what I’ve come to call our Wisdom Self), would it be possible to collaborate consciously in order to create a rewarding life path and/or to assist in co-facilitating personal growth in others?
  • I have several friends living with dis-ease. Would it be possible to collaborate with Spirit consciously to determine best course of action here in the physical for assisting others on their life journeys as they continue in life or through the transition period back to Spirit?
  • How would life be different? Might we better understand the gifts we’re born with and choose occupations based on the gifts?
  • Would we work together in large groups to discern next steps for our culture, for our world?

And finally, would there be discussion and decisions at the Spirit Collective level that seep through the core threads tethering each of us to our Wisdom Self in order for us to consciously recognize and grow with constant, steady nurturing? What a wonderous reality this could be if we were consciously aware each moment of being more than this…

“If I were to wish for anything, I should not wish for wealth and power, but for the passionate sense of the potential, for the eye which, ever young and ardent, sees the possible. Pleasure disappoints, possibility never. And what wine is so foaming, what so fragrant, what so intoxicating, as possibility! ~~ Soren Kierkegaard


Torso 11 “Hong Kong” by Naoka Tosa 2012


Last Sunday morning, I entered into meditation with a specific intent…wanting to know more about what it means to have free will? Are the choices we make really our decisions? Or is what we experience predetermined? I know with certainty that we are physical representations of Spirit Collective manifesting as individual selves. I know we collaborate in the spiritual realm by working together, sharing and planning what we will experience as human. So, I am left with this nagging question, “What is it we choose living as physical beings on our life path if we are making decisions on another level about what to experience?”

After moving into quiet silence to sit with my question, the meditation unfolded.  Immediately I was shown images of a body clothed head to toe in a patchwork of experiences and words, living snapshots of life. The patchwork appeared to make up physical self. I interpreted this image as representative of our liberty to choose experiences and the words impacting us as we walk the path born into.

Another image quickly followed, garments of flowing colors representing underlying character draped over hangers.  There were several of us browsing the many-colored themes, hues of blue, orange, yellows, and more, flowing energies of color that we wear. Having performed hundreds of aura readings over the years, I’ve recognized that we carry underlying color themes. For instance healers most often walk with hues of green, which indicate a natural healer. Sitting in the presence of a green-themed person can be a very restful, peaceful, healing experience.

A client I work with consistently emanates an underlying turquoise aura, which indicates a dynamic, highly energized personality, who easily influences other people. Individuals with a turquoise theme are multitaskers and good organizers. They have a tendency to feel bored when forced to concentrate on one thing. This completely fits the client I was reading. She is outgoing and charismatic with a strong work ethic, works in a position where it is necessary to jump from one task to the next and absolutely detests paperwork.

Despite theses meditative images, the question still nags at me. I’ve interpreted the images to mean that we are born into a circumstance with an underlying color theme and the ability to choose from a myriad of experiences as we move through life, experiences which then form memories and words that shape who we are at any given moment. Understanding free will and choice remains puzzling. I want to know more. What choices are we born with? How much freedom do we have in shaping our lives? What is predetermined, if anything?

When on this kind of quest I don’t stop until there is complete clarity and I can share information with others confidently. I’ve asked for continued mentoring and teaching in both the dream as well as meditative states regarding free will living in the physical world. I know the knowledge will come. So stay connected dear reader, we are more than this…

“We gallop through our lives like circus performers balancing on two speeding side by-side horses — one foot is on the horse called ‘fate,’ the other on the horse called ‘free will.’ And the question you have to ask every day is–which horse is which? Which horse do I need to stop worrying about because it’s not under my control, and which do I need to steer with concentrated effort?”
―    Elizabeth Gilbert,   Eat, Pray, Love

On a Free-Will Quest

We Are Enough


This week has been particularly crazy busy in the office with projects coming at me one after one, all with Friday deadlines. Yes, that would be today, and it’s a short work week! By Thursday morning my head was spinning.

Ah, but there it was, that Grace I keep telling you about, just coming along surprising me again and again. How is it that our general state of modus operandi is worry, fear, and anxiety, even when Grace appears over and over again? How can a state of calm knowing replace the MO that is so insidious living as human? Even with daily meditation and mindful living, I still find I fall into old behavior in times of busy-ness. I suppose I can say, “I’m only human.” But is that just another way of saying nope can’t do it, an easy excuse?

We are enough. At any given time we are all that we can be, we just don’t trust it. Realizing the lapse in confident calm and knowing, I decided to look for an inspirational blurb to pull me back into a peace-filled state. I share this with you.

Living Beyond Fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous. Actually who am I not to be? You are a child of God. If you are playing small, that doesn’t serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.

We are born to manifest the glory of God within us. It is in everyone. And as we let our lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

~ Marianne Williamson

Leaning Into Spirit


There’s a wilderness in each of us, the place we wander when we’ve let ourselves get too exhausted, too peopled out, too buried in responsibility and haven’t practiced a sliver of self-care. Before the Manifested Love experience (May 15th post), I would occasionally feel sadness over not understanding my life purpose. The sadness would appear stealth-like, a quiet almost cloak-like dark peace, but a peace nonetheless. I named this and the emotion that came along with the physical framework, human-ness. It was necessary for me to sit in peaceful contemplation until I knew I could rise up and walk out of it connected with Spirit to begin again, pulling myself out of hibernation. Using words, I named it recovery from living in just human-ness. It was an awakening.

The Manifested Love experience has been the most distinct of all mystical events, a life-changing event. There is a quiet that’s come with leaning into Spirit, the acceptance that all is well no matter how it may appear on the outside with life events whirling all about.

“Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you”             Matthew 7:7                           

This morning I woke up wondering how I was going to complete the monumental number of projects sitting on my desk, deadlines fast approaching. I spoke my concerns during meditation, letting them flow out and away. Arriving in the office, minutes ticking away, I chipped at the projects little by little, then grace appeared. A colleague called saying she’d thought about me falling asleep last night after seeing the sea of paper on my desk the day before. She wanted to know how she could help. “I can put some of my own things aside and help out.”

Not a half hour later another colleague stopped in to say she was willing to help with whatever needed to be done during this crunch time. I sat in amazed gratitude, thanked God for this lovely, lovely grace, and accepted both offers. Leaning into Spirit and letting go, knowing all was well, there it was, amazing grace.

“Come to me all you who are burdened by lack of praise, lack of beauty, lack of vision in your lives. Look about you at the starry heavens and the deep, deep-sea, at the amazing history that has birthed a home for you on this planet, at the surprise and joy of your existence. Gather together — you and your communities — in the context of this great, cosmic community to rejoice and give thanks. To heal and let go. To enter the dark and deep mysteries…Be brave…Never be bored again. Create yourselves, re-create your worlds, by the news you share and the visions you celebrate…” ~ Matthew Fox, The Coming of the Cosmic Christ

Living As Diversity


Slavic Mythology Museum Art

Many believe diversity is about differences, today I challenge you to step off to the center a bit and view diversity as individual uniqueness, each, all and everything as creative expressions of Living Spirit.

“Let us pray to the One who holds us in the hollow of
  His hands, 
To the One who holds us in the curve of Her arms, 
To the One whose flesh is the flesh of hills and  
  hummingbirds and angleworms, 
Whose skin is the color of an old Black woman and 
  a young white man; and the color of the leopard 
  and the grizzly bear and the green grass snake, 
Whose hair is like the aurora borealis, rainbows,
  nebulae, waterfalls, and a spider’s web, 
Whose eyes sometime shine like the Evening Star,
  and then like fireflies, and then again like an 
  open wound, 
Whose touch is both the touch of life and the touch
  of death, 
And whose name is everyone’s, but mostly mine. 
And what shall we pray? 
Let us say, “thank you.”

Max Coots
Minister Emeritus of the Canton,N.Y. 
Unitarian Universalist Church